Just Not In The Mood...

My heart is heavy and my soul is weary. I just can't do it this year. There's no one around to help 'do' the decorations and (for once) I'm just not going to beg and nag to get them out of the attic - and put up - and it's ok. Really, it is. Seriously. My husband has his hands full taking care of the farm, his elderly mother, working a full-time job, and more. Not going to ask him to do another thing. I am simply NOT in the spirit this year. There will not be a tree in the house with me for the first time in 53 years. I do havc a beautiful 1½ foot turquoise tree in my bedroom. Surely that’d get me at least one jolly point – but as far as any actual decorating at my house this year – not happening. And honestly, the little turquoise tree has been sitting in the same spot since last Christmas –and I’ve decided it’s found its permanent resting place. I like looking at it and seeing it all year round, so wah-lah – one decoration problem solved. Additionally, I am NOT sending out cards for the first time in 30 years. Again, I just can't do it. Does this mean I’ve finally grown up?? Hmmm…..Nah- Not a chance. I still love life and love the REAL meaning of CHRISTmas - but all the ads on TV, all the craziness out there, the commercialization of the season - it's just a turn-off to me this year. And the hustle and bustle of the season I use to enjoy is now just too nerve wracking for me. I suppose my (usually) jolly holiday spirit has also been hampered this year because of a lot of personal and professional changes that occurred during the year. It’s been a year of lots of changes. But nonetheless, whatever the reason, I'll just be glad when January gets here and we can just have some more snow days. Hopefully, next time there'll be enough snow to make up a big batch of snow cream! So, I guess it’s official – I.AM.AN.OLD.LADY. But bring on the snow cream! Yes!  And PS...Merry Christmas!